I feel like I've been through a hell and a half in this process, but I am coming out of the other side knowing I could walk in a classroom tomorrow and teach any of the 60 works on my list, and that I have a pretty decent overview of 20th Century American Lit which will help lay a foundation for my dissertation. Now, I just need to have a four hour on-paper conversation with three great women- Margaret, Clare, and Anna Mae- (the advisiors who wrote the test) about books I love and how they fit together, based on some pretty narrow themes.
A year ago, I was ready to quit. Positive I could never do this, that I was too stupid, that I didn't have the talent, that I should just give up. Maragret and Clare convinced me that I had made it this far, and not to let the "imposter syndrome" get me.
I am not an imposter. I can do this. And I will.
Thank you to those of you have been such a support, and believed in me. I will carry your strength with me tomorrow.